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by SticksAndStones

I’m sorry. But you guys make living so tough. ~8 year old me.

Goodbye.~12 year old me

I always play the “am I going to die today or tomorrow” game.  Tomorrow used to always win.

If I’m not alive in the morning,today finally won.~27 days ago,16 year old me.

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Cause of Death: Suicide 10/28/2019 - 1:31 am

When I was 12, I would pray before bed every night that I wouldn’t wake up in the morning. I had to commit suicide as soon as possible. I was supposed to kill myself the day I turned 18, because I didn’t know how to other than by gunshot. I don’t know why I am still alive today, I am now 25. But you sound smart, you give me power and determination to put the gun to my head.

Soda 10/28/2019 - 3:10 am

It saddens me to see that some people have had such bad conditions in their life that they are forced to seek a way out by ending it.

But these are true stories and there is real suffering that’s going on. That is one mercy in life, that we are finite beings and we can end our lives if it becomes too terrible.

Although my life is improving somewhat, I’m in my 40s now and I don’t like looking at myself in the mirror because I am out of shape, I’m slowly losing my hair and I just don’t look as good as I did when I was in my 20s (though I still see myself as a young adult).

It may sound superficial but in fact I don’t get much attention from girls anymore like I once did. Also I’m not as healthy as I used to be and my memory isn’t as good either.

Separately my issues might seem minor but taken together it leads to the conclusion that my life really is a waste of time. About the only thing that’s made it worthwhile tbh is sex. I did luck out in that dept in the past and hoping I’ll do it again in the future…but I need to get back in shape again to have any hope with attractive girls.

But I am telling you honestly, if I could take a magic pill that’d off me quickly, then I wouldn’t hesitate. I’ve suffered enough and that little happiness I had in my life doesn’t make us for all the bs I’ve had to deal with.

To think a few minutes of pleasure for someone else turns into a lifetime of misery for you and me. That is wrong, unfair and should be abolished. Euthanasia should be available for anyone at any time.

Why are we forced to keep living just because we exist? We are simply the product of two people copulating, we don’t deserve a life sentence for that.

a1957 10/29/2019 - 12:49 pm

Yes I hate that two people blinded by optimism and over confidence, or just plain drunk (one or both), or naive, or just need a little person to meet all their needs, or grandma’s needs, have a good time (maybe) and someone gets to pay for their wants with an 80 year life sentence, often hard, never easy.

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