I want to feel loved. I long the feeling of being desired by someone. I want to feel like people out there love me and want me to exist. I want to have a reason not to kill my self. I want people who show me I matter and that i will be missed. But I don’t have those people. I just have sadness and emptiness. I have people who don’t bother to reach out to me and shallow friends. Give me a reason to stay alive. Don’t make me regret not killing my self. Because right now, I regret not killing my self when I had the chance. I don’t want to feel this way anymore. I’m tired of getting drunk alone. I’m tired of cutting myself so deep I have to sleep on a towel so I don’t get blood on my sheets. I’m tired of making myself throw up because I feel guilty for consuming so many calories. I just want to be okay again. I want to be loved. Is that too much to ask for?
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No, it’s not too much to ask but life will teach us some lessons even if we feel like we need or deserve something that we don’t get.
And you might come out stronger after this experience and you might find love afterall.
It is too much to ask for. Love is a fairy tale. You have been misled.
One must learn to be okay alone, because you are the only person you have, at the end of the day. Don’t measure yourself based on what others do or don’t do.