There are some days you don’t want to face reality of your life. The trajectory its heading on. I’ve always found university work hard to complete, panic and anxiety plague me constantly. This is normal but, I find myself in depressive ruts as it were whenever it overwhelms me. Suicidal ideation is then my constant companion and routine goes out the window. I do not want any form of idealistic hope commentary. I know how I feel and I know what I want and if ever arrive on the decision and will power to complete my death I will; for now I just needed to share to the void.