My Life Update

So it’s been a while since I last posted on here I’ve had so much going on lately its unreal I’ve been dealing a lot with depression and it hasn’t been easy all I’ve been thinking a lot about self harm lately and it’s been effecting me so much with my work and life my family doesn’t understand anything I’m going through and to top it off they make things worse at times saying it’s my fault for so much and it sucks because I try so hard to this person they want me to be instead of the person I really am I just need help I almost cut the other day because I just cant take this shit anymore and it’s just really hard like I’m trying to save my money so I can get a place and every time I have enough they need it for something then I have nothing but its hard to say no since I’m living here still but its to stressful for me I don’t know what to do anymore