Didn’t believed that escape would be happening alone. To Germany. A women visited me, she astonished me. I had been under self-medication to not leave her ablaze, to not cause Fear, Confusion or Communication Problems.
She left early. My thoughts right away been, that I need to be with her.
I have requested the Adress. She, Isolated herself.
I am coming for her. I fear that her Dad is sending me away.
I want to Life, and she is worth that. I want to Love, but this feeling, this requirement is new to me.
But, I can kill myself too, if I can not see her again.
If she isn’t real to me, if I can not life with her.