Sometimes I come here to only read, sometimes I come here to read and respond to others. Sometimes I feel the need to write something myself but don’t know what exactly… It’s always the st@pid same sh@t.!
My day is fine until someone disappoints me.. I really hate how much some things affect me. I don’t know what is wrong with me, to even be upset about such unimportant cr@p. My sensitivity is beyond normal and I don’t know what to do anymore..
The battle inside me is really insane, no one understands, how much energy it takes up, to not go crazy on them. It’s really destroying me. I’ve let go of so many toxic friendships and yet I come to realize, all of them have a little poison in them.
In these kinds of moments I’m in between blaming them or blaming myself. I feel crazy, yes. But it wouldn’t have to be if people would be nicer and just stopped lying.! Been lied to twice today.
It’s funny, yesterday I was laying in bed with a sense of euphoria and I was super happy and I instantly thought: Sh@t, the day tomorrow will s@ck @ss, with me feeling like that.! And I’m always right.! It did s@ck indeed.!