I have a chronic illness that has wiped out my life. I used to be highly athletic, worked hard, loved life. Now I’m in pain every second of every day and my anxiety is any high. This is due to chronic Lyme disease which half the medical community doesn’t even recognize. Nothing helps. Nothing makes it go away or better and worst of all, all expenses are out of pocket. No insurance coverage for this. I’ve been thinking suicidal thoughts every single day and they won’t go away. I’ve tried to hang myself on my knees but it doesn’t work. I get this surge of warmth and then my fight flight kicks in and I can’t go further. I don’t know any other ways to end my life that I think I can do. I’m in hell with this disease and I can’t go on any further.