It’s destroying me. I can’t stand it anymore. I don’t have any friends, nobody to talk to, or laugh with. I had friends in the past, but since then i have isolated myself completely. The last time i spoke with someone that wasn’t my family was 1 month ago, and they were still just classmates. I don’t even remember the last time i had an irl conversation with somebody. The worst thing is that if i wanted i could reach out to somebody, but at this point it’s almost as i want to be alone just to feel sadder. For some reason it’s reassuring even if it makes me feel worse.
People my age go outside together, have fun in all sorts of ways. I have been alone for so much time that i don’t even have any social skills. If i had some before Covid-19, they were all wiped out. And now i haven’t gone out of home for weeks.If you don’t count going to school then maybe i go out once every two months. I just want to stop thinking and worrying about all of this.
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Yeah lockdown was a tough time for everybody. There’s tons of support groups for depression, though, and work or school are good ways to make friends. If you want, I can give you the links for some with nice people.
My discord is “.”#7358 I wouldn’t mind a chat, I need one too.
well there is the source of agony; “People my age should.” Track down the root of that tree, and you’ll be on the road to healing.
If it is similar to my situation, the “should” comes out of an unspoken expectation that turned out to be in my mind more than real. You can have people, and what it takes is finding a way to learn from missteps and perform good communication. Vulnerability and Good Communication are the foundations of healthy relationships.
I do, however, understand that even these may not draw the desired companionship. So I leave you with this proverb; “Better alone than in the company of those that harm my health”