So now theres been 4 of my exes who have wanted to see me and be intimate. And i rejected all of em. As much as i want to because its been 7months since ive done anything, i really need to let go and just wait for someone who will treat me like i mean something and not just another option. Idk how men can use women like that, its pretty degrading. Like a person is always good enough to screw but never date. Like bruh that makes us feel like sh*t, just an fyi. You get your ego boost and we question our self worth til we go crazy.
But this is a new Ellen. I dont want to settle, i dont want meaningless sex cuz thatll just make me worse later on in the day. But im focused on my mental health right now, not releationships. Sex is def the last thing on my list to my road of recovery. I know dude is thinkin he will hear from me soon thinkin id change my mind about his offer but no i have to do this for myself. I have to prove them theyre wrong, i have to show them that im not a dog thats gonna keep runnin back home, and they need to know that No i will not be there for them anymore. The new Ellen will need new people anyways. I dont want someone from my past anymore because then nothin will ever change!!!
New Ellen who dis?!