I’m literally gonna explode. I want to screams so fucking bad but my family is around so I don’t arouse suspicions that something is wrong. I’m gonna have a heart attack and pills or meditation isn’t going to do shit. Even venting on here isn’t relieving it. Oh my god this so fucking painful.
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What seems to be the trouble
classic ‘customer service’ response 😀 😀 😀
(no offense intended i swear, i just really laughed 😀 )
@ Jack
do please tell us what’s causing all this agony?
do You know if it’s something in particular that happened recently?
go to a random field and scream, sometimes if i’m lucky it works for me. or scream into a pillow
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Im going to go ahead and guess there is nothing obvious that’s triggering the reaction you described. But even if there was…
You’ve got to learn to calm down. It can be done. And it’s something people have to learn how to do. Put your awareness into your breath, notice your breath’s qualities, deep or shallow, coarse or fine, forgive yourself for being ignorant, forgive others for their ignorance, wish that every creature in the universe will be happy, wish yourself to be happy. Get your mind in that track and out of the off the rails one. It will help.
You were right in the first paragraph. It was nothing at first but it spiraled into everything . My anxiety and depression is a huge struggle that I can’t be overcome. I’ve been on a million of medication for 5 years and nothing works. So yeah there is no such thing as calm for me. I appreciate that you tried anyways.
It takes awhile.
Evolution is slow, and that’s what’s happening here. Evolution.
Many creatures died on the way from living in the sea to living on land. But life got there.
Evolution is proceeding along realms of consciousness in human beings more so than in the physical realms now. That journey begins in the dark for all of us. You’re only disoriented within yourself right now, nothing more.
If these pills you’re taking don’t help, I’d guess the reason is your illness isn’t physical. It’s spiritual. The only thing that can help with that is wholesome realization, and I have yet to meet any psychiatrist or professional counsellor that can help people much with that.
What helped me out was psychedelic drugs, and Buddhism mostly. Not for everyone, that’s for sure. But you might want to check it out.