Losing all my friends, my family wants to give up on me. I been feeling psychotic all this time. Nobody loves you while you’re here but they will miss you when you’re gone. Atleast pretend they will. The older you get, the worse it is. You know that stupid show “Everyone hates Chris” well my theme title would be “Everyone hates Mike” just for any sympathy, you ever been told since you’re suicidial, “why dont you do it” Also a reminder, just human nature “people will leave you once the convience stops. Like money, good friendship or the best one yet, the guy who is only youe friend to try to f your girl. Or better yet, your “bestfriend” that sneaks through the texts trying to F your girl. Society is toxic asf. Especially my family. My family used each other against one another. Actually used tf out of my grandparents. It breaks my heart hearing it, because sh!t was done for eveeyone else but me. Nobody loved me. I’m 23-24 crying how my family treated me like sh!t. It was because of who my parents were. It kills my heart, my mind, my soul. Im so lost, in a tribulation. Just being a depressed person is aleady a life full of misery and i dont take anti depressants. Just for soul fact. I hate being drug dependant. My own brother hates me. Ill just forever be alone. I know i deserve to die. I know I should. End this suffering. I been suffering only the last 11 years with depression. God knows i want out. My life will end with me going to prison or dieing on the streets. My life now only revolves around hood sh!t. Btw, there is nothing good about the hood. Its your normal menaces to society bs. Never been shot or stabbed. But i have fought before. Bring me the 200lb gorillas. Im a gorilla my damn self. Streets are 10x worse for women and i pray for any girl that suffers being on the streets or victim to sexual abuse. The world gets sh!tter by the day. Just like the big news for the manhunt of that blonde girl. Only a drop in the bucket. It was big news. Just cant think of names. This my be my last post for awhile or forever. Im gonna be homeless again or eventually prison. I did something stupid and might have to pay the ultimate price, all your time and a felony. Now people hate you even more! I love being hated, because i hate everyone else the same. I really wish America dropped nuclear bombs on themself because this country is really is f!cking stupid. Just so ya’ll get it clearly. The illegals only want your free government handouts and $15 or better jobs. Then bring it back to their country. They hate normal americans. Probably because of jealously. I find mexicans just like blacks. Whites dont mix with either kind because its like apples, to oranges, to pears. We are just too damn different. Im not racist, its tribalism. You will always pick your own kind over the other. But when you’re a whiteboy in prison. Better just learn how to be a lone wolf. Nobodys knows it yet, but im a killer. If i show up, in prison. I will stand my ground dying or you will pay for trying me.