Getting close to the day. Everything is planned and verified, as much as it can be done. The only thing that’s a total wild card is what I’ll be feeling in the minutes before. My method is jumping. Success rate is 100% from my chosen location. 90% in general from that height. So obviously there aren’t many accounts of people’s last thoughts. I highly doubt there are any failed jumpers here but if there are please post what your thoughts were especially as you fell. Any other extremely violent suicide survivors please share as well (train, gunshot, anything that immediately results in severe damage) although I highly doubt any of those people are here either.
‘Peaceful’ suicides I feel are in an entirely different category as far as what you feel as it happens. I myself have made a halfassed overdose attempt as well as a hanging experiment and they were nothing compared to the overload of emotion I felt climbing the tower i intend to jump from. Fear obviously but a fear like you’ve never felt in your fucking life. But that same violent fear is what I believe will propel me because at a certain point it turns into pure mindless adrenaline, the kind that makes you do anything