laying here staring at the same ceiling for years now.
each time ending up in the same place emotionally.
lost and confused of where my life is going or where I want to go.
I can still feel it all of it. all the unwanted touches, traumatic experience, haunting words play in my head like a fever dream.
swiftly I start to forget the forgetfulness stemming from not having the courage of an appetite.
I would just like all of them people that hurt me in a room just to scream out and attack the anger I feel that I cannot express. The anger of allowing it to affect me so much but how could it not?
I hate them, I hate them, I HATE THEM , I HATE ME