It’s been a while since I wrote on here. But I need a release. I feel so alone. The most alone I’ve felt in a long while. I don’t know how else to deal with this feeling, so I’ve resorted to what feels most comforting to me. Just like it used to. I almost forgot how to write my emotions down. I just shrug them off and move on. But it feels like everything I’ve shrugged off has just been dragging at my feet. And now this are difficult for me. I can’t carry my weight, I’m dragging my feet. My heart feels heavy.
But I’m back now. It feels comforting. Like I’m cutting the weight off my feet as I write this. Maybe I’ll relearn how to do this. I hope I will.
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I feel that way too. When I’ve shrugged one too many things off, stowed it away, never thought about it again, I have to put it down on paper. It’s the most honest internal dialogue there is because it’s so intentional. The insight you gain from observing the patterns in your behaviour is what can really help you change. But well, despair has always caught up with me in the end. I wish you better luck.
I agree with you. Writing your emotions down on paper is like channeling all your pain on to it. It’s a form of release that heals more than speaking to others who couldn’t understand or care about how you’re feeling. I feel you. I wish you better luck too. I hope you find some release.