I genuinely can’t take it anymore

Everyone always says it gets better but when has it ever gotten to be anything other than shit. I’m sick of being all alone and empty I realize people never cared if I lived or die because to 7.7 billion people here I’m just another meaningless speck who repeats the same day over and over just with a different script and is just a waste to society. it just feels like I’ve just fucked up anything good that comes my way and like a magnet to the bad. The only thing that I truly just want is to be dead and forgotten so I won’t burden the people forced around me and myself anymore.