It won’t be long now

I’ve been battling with an unknown illness since I was 23, on and off, and because I also have health anxiety disorder neither my parents nor my doctors have ever believed me.  It took me a long time but I have an idea of what is going on and I think there is little hope I will live the year.  I believe I have SIBO which in turn causes chronic infections, especially in my prostate, which hurts so bad I wish I were dead.  I’ve been feeling better for the past year but the symptoms have been getting worst the past 6 months, IBS, rash, and the pain is returning.  The problem is I can barley eat, if I eat carbs my yeast infection kicks up, which I believe is the source of my prostate pain and fibromyalgia symptoms and if I eat fat I get pain in my pancreas, I’ve lost 40lbs in 4 months and it’s getting to the point where in a few more months I’ll either be committed or dead.  Luckily I was obese but I’ve just crossed over into the overweight category for my height, if I lose another 80lbs I think that will be it for me, so about 8 months.