It was a late Saturday night in February
People were home, it was quiet for a weekend
We had just fought over something i don’t even remember
There goes my short term memory loss again
I feel alone even when im not
I tried to make amends but you wouldn’t have it
So i took a walk
I didn’t think you noticed i was gone
All i could think about was the train tracks across the street
I was disassociating again
Walked down near the barrier, only 2 cars passed by
I was 2 steps away from the tracks when a train sped by
I snapped out of it, startled by the sound
That could have been the end for me
My friend who never calls, did just to check up on me
I walked away, stumbling over nothing
I didn’t cry, i just felt utter emptiness
I never wanted anything so bad
It turns out you noticed
You didn’t question me
I kept it to myself like i always do
One day, i’ll be brave enough to leave permanently
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I don’t think I could have resisted stepping in front of that train. By train has been on my mind for a long time. Any of these accidents/ incidents involving trains you hear reports of are all deliberate suicides. It’s actually quite a common method. Terrible for the driver, passengers, emergency services etc but I understand only too well how someone could check out by train.