So, the long boring backstory you can probably skip, though it probably won’t be as long as it should be because I don’t have the attention span for that right now.
My boss/company owner was married when I started my job. I was married. 3 months later she and her husband are fighting because a guy that worked here was caught kissing her. She said he was trying to rape her and he was fired within the week. Another 3 months later and she’s cheating with the office gal, both are married and are poorly keeping it a secret. She divorces her husband to be with this girl who then moves in and a month later decides that she wants to go back to her husband. They break up. She’s forced to quit. Tears, yada yada. Maybe three months after that, she’s hooked up with another guy who is her employee. That doesn’t last as long and they break up. Shortly after he’s fired. All the employees have seen this cycle and are furious.
Now my turn. I knew better! I fucking knew better!
Guess what?
I slept with the boss.
Yep.
I know.
Stupid.
We can all see where this is going right?
Anyways, she just broke up with yet another person and I was hanging out with her and a few other people. She asked if we wanted to camp over to which I was happily obliged to avoid my husband who was already fighting with me. Everyone trickled off to bed except 3 of us. Drunk and acting like children we came up with a great plan to TP our other friends house just a few doors down. Number 3 doesn’t want to go.
We walk on down to her house and this girl tackles me to the ground and starts kissing me. I was so into it honestly. Things got wild. No TP’ing was done.
I think this is a one night oops, moving on, rebound. The next night she goes out of her way to be with me and trying to keep it secret. The next night the same.
Now I’m head over heels in love with this girl: I have been for more than a year that I can recall clearly. I am there for this trip.
But maybe she isn’t?
Idfk
She tells me this can’t work, we can’t keep doing this, and some such thing. I know and agree. So all work week was awkward, and confusing, and we avoided each other. The weekend rolls around and she asks me to come help her with her motorcycle.
Butterflies
HELL YES I WILL
Fix the bike pretty easily and there is a race going on she asks if I would like to go.
HELL YEAH AGAIN
She’s the sweetest thing in the world and more chivalrous than anyone. Her smile is to die for.
So yeah, we end up in the back of her car and her kid walks up on us mid session.
La la la.
Nothing happening here.
Shit.
Anyway, doesn’t stop us from moving to her house and bed.
Waking up with her next to me, well, I can’t describe that feeling.
Now I told her something a few nights earlier because she asked, I had screwed around with another coworker like 6 months ago, she laughed, said she knew it, and moved on.
Then she found out that I did that sober and the reaction was disgust with me. She thought I had a relationship with this person, which I never did. She also pointed out I am married and we can’t be together.
This is the part from my previous post where I drank myself to a stupor and cut myself badly.
Anyways, all this to get to where we are now.
She’s completely avoiding me except for once in a while she says something so damn sweet or caring that I can’t pretend she doesn’t like me at all. Then she does the other stuff that makes me go WTF and get angry or sad again.
I’m trying to chock it up as being over, with a glimmer that maybe once my husband moves out we can try again.
Did I mention I’m getting a divorce? Not over this but was just happening anyways.
So a week later ish now, my daughter texted my husband that her friend saw me kissing her mom.
My daughter is halfway across the country spending the summer with family.
My husband waits till I get home and confronts me with this.
Guilty as charged
I know they are friends but seriously thought it wasn’t going to get back that way.
My daughter is freaking.
My husband is pissed.
I’m scared because my husband is liable to hurt or kill me in a fit of rage so I left and I guess I’m sleeping in the car.
That’s it.
That’s where I am.
Hiding.
In a car, with a bottle of fireball, weed, a water, and a coffee.
No one to turn to.
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You could write a telenovella with that script, lol.
-Ok, so your boss is a lady, and she is bi?
-You’re a married woman, going through divorce, and you had a thing for her, so you’re bi too?
-You totally fell for her but she views it as just another fling?
-What about this lady that EVERYONE keeps falling for?? Like is she hot? Why is everyone ignoring all the obvious signs to stay away from her?
As a boss/owner, she should definitely NOT be having relations with her employees. And not only that, she fires them all after the fling ends or sours. That is totally illegal.
–>From an outsider perspective, you should stay away from this lady, and disengage emotionally from her. She’s all around bad news. But you already know that, and you’ll ignore it anyway, bc the heart wants what it wants…
Yes, the boss is bi, and apparently so am I though I haven’t always owned that, kinda started when I met her.
I fell for her before I even knew she was bi, and she was married, and it wasn’t even a possibility to consider being with her. I don’t think she is as invested as I am. I just don’t know and we don’t really talk about it.
Yeah, giant red flags, I know. Not sure what it is about her. She’s exciting, cute/beautiful (at least in my eyes), caring, strong, and cool. How could anyone resist? Lol
You are right on all points, she shouldn’t, I shouldn’t, but I probably will because my heart says so.
>.<
Really that’s not even all the insanity involved in my life complicating things right now but it was most of the relevant stuff. My life could be a soap opera for sure.
so wait, do you want a divorce?
I can’t say the affair sounds anything close to healthy, but that doesn’t necessarily weigh in on the stay VS go. My first wife cheated on me, and for awhile we tried to make it work. Eventually, I realized she didn’t feel remorse, and that was the point I gave up.
Have you had a discussion with your husband about the state of your relationship? Sure, he’s justified in feeling violated, but what does he want?
last observation — – forbidden fruit, the tastiest and most toxic. I’ve run into some people I wouldn’t mind being with….. but the wall has always held, not that it’s been tested overmuch. My thing is a relationship entered under compromised circumstances are potentially poisoned by it.
so while the grass may appear greener on the other side, it probably just has different lawn based diseases.
OP said they were already going through a divorce before this “affair”
or sounded like it
but anyway, she’s going to be burned. that lady boss tosses her sexual partners away like used cigarettes. or maybe the analogy is more like OP is a fly drawn to the bright light that’s going to kill it.
I cheated on my husband before like 11 years ago and I’ve wanted a divorce ever since but couldn’t bring myself to go through with it because he had no job or friends or place.
Poisonous or not it tastes so sweet in the moment.
And Eternal is right, divorce before affair if only a day earlier. I am going to get burnt. I’m bracing for it.