I think this website/webpost is my roman empire, no matter how long i go without coming here i seem to always find my way back.
My first post here was back in 2014 (obviously using an other account), i used to love reading back then and I even vowed on my life to become a great author. It’s almost 2024, i haven’t read a single book this year (i mean I’ve started some but haven’t finished none) and i haven’t written anything ever since 2018 (im doing amazing aren’t i?) .
Whenever i come here the first thing i do is reread all my old post because i remember my old user name and oh my english was super duper bad back then. No one ever said anything about it and I believe this showcase exactly why I’ve never been able to completely let go of suicideproject.
Everyone read my posts and tried their best to understand what i was saying, they even replied with their perfect english, never making me feel inferior or correcting me —and honestly I wouldn’t have taken offense if they did.
Empathy and understanding is the reason why i will never fully be able to let go of suicide project. We understand, we listen, we read and sometimes we answer, never deflecting from the focus point. No one belittles, hell i think we all already feel so small that we wouldn’t dare make anyone feel any smaller
This webpost is filled with amazing people which makes it even sadder knowing the reason why we’re all here. What a beautiful paradox.
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I can relate on the reading and writing front, but I think everyone has periods where the old stuff stops working. Last year was that for me, I almost entirely stopped reading, I had stopped writing mostly somewhere in 2021. I don’t remember enough of the rest of this year, but last month I read a few books. Last night I wrote a few dozen pages. It’s still there, waiting for me to be ready.
As you say though, this is a great community. I honestly don’t remember what my first year was here, but the last three years it’s been a reliable support in dark times.
You’re totally right!! This year i will try my best to go back to ready and writing.
Happy new year!