It’s been days since I joined the Suicide Project. During this time, I reconnected with my so-called friends, and we resolved our conflicts. We’re on good terms now.
However, my interactions with people around me continue to be problematic. I fear this might also happen with my friends. It’s frustrating to navigate friendships in college. I perceive many people as self-absorbed, hurtful, and selfish. They seem oblivious to how their actions affect others.
In my imagination, I envision them lined up, each with their hearts ripped out, similar to a scene from a movie. While I don’t actually want to harm them, I feel pity for their foolish behavior.
I’ve let go of the people I once considered friends, and I don’t mind it. Recently, I tried to reach out to a friend, but they weren’t receptive. They chose to listen to music instead. I’m adjusting to people’s reactions in my life and moving forward. This cycle is exhausting, and I’m growing weary of social interactions.
All I desire is solitude, a small space where I can be alone without human contact. I just want to relax and escape from this chaotic world.