My wife of 7 years left 3months ago and it still feels like the first day.she has a new bf wich she says shes in love with now.that
realy fucked me up.realy bad.the thought of them holding hands or kissing kills me and the thought of them makeing love makes me physicly ill i want to vomit.each day i pray all day to die and i even try about a month ago.thay put me in the hospital for about a week and i had to lie and tell them i wouldnt try again so thay would let me out.we have 4 year old son together and hes with me most of the time, but even his beautiful face isnt a strong enough ancor to make me wanna stay.ive been told im selfish for wanting to commit suicide because it would hurt him so bad.but i cant help it.the thought of her with another man fucks me up.i cant stop shaking,i cant interact with other ppl i have to take meds but thay just make me sleepy so i only take it at night.and ot does nothing for depression. My family is sick of my ranting and crying.death is all i think about and im sure within the next few days ill try again.only if i fail this time thay will never let me out of that fucking hell-hole.i just need to know how to survive tomorrow. PLEASE SOMEONE HELP….i fear the end is near
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You know how you can survive? Show her that you can go on, you can live & breath & strive without her. Show her you are a better man than the one she’s with she’ll regret her decision. By then you’ll have moved on. Easier said than done but trust me it works. Be strong.
And lastly obviously, your son doesn’t really have a mother right now, killing yourself would traumatize him. For the rest of his life he’d blame himself. He needs you now more than ever. He needs your stability & guidance, don’t leave that little boy parentless. Focus on him & not all the pain your feeling. Take him out do things with him. Get a pet. Keep breathing for him.
Hello sin thanks for your encouragemet and concern.but as we speak my angle is with another man and im going insane.no one canunderstand the pain and cofusion.im sick with the thought love makeing.its even affected my desire.i cant watch ppl hold hands or kiss, even on tv.it just reninds me of what shes doing.ive gone insaine with sadness.i just want to die.sleep forever.because real sleep comes with dreams.and there all of her.please pray for my death.PLEASE!!!
ive been crying all morning.it never ends
You know I’ve came to this site quite a few times over time, and I’ve read tons of people’s thoughts. This is the first time I’ve ever felt the need to post anything. The thing is, I’ve been through what your going through. It’s tough. I feel for you. One thing that I know, the people that don’t understand this pain is people that has never been there. They tell you to ‘move on, get a grip, you’ll get over her’… if I just had a dollar for everytime I heard that. Which the first time I heard that was over 20 some years ago. I still cringe thinking about it, everything you said. It does get better with time. Time heals everything. Not entirely true, but close. There is alot I could say here, I’m afraid I would bore you. When it happened to me, it took awhile, maybe 2 years to feel better. I was prescribed many pills. Didn’t help. I wish you the best however. Also, there will be a day when she comes back. I promise you. I just hope your strong enough to hold back. I wasn’t. Ended up in more pain.
I just want to start off by saying. Don’t feel like you are alone through this, thousands of people have felt and gone through what you’re going through and have made it past the horrible days. I myself have just been broken up with by someone whom ive lived with for a couple years and i honestly can’t picture myself with anyone else even thinking about myself with someone else sickens me let alone them with someone else. Please do not try and kill yourself again! I know you are feeling terrible but that beautiful son of yours will feel much worse without a father. I want you to see that as your motivation, to be a good rolemodel for him no matter what pain you are going through. I know it seems like life will always be like this but I can assure you it won’t. Spend your time doing things you like, just take a deep breath and know that a better day is soon to come. “i know the sub must set to rise” just remember that. You have people who love and care about you deeply and would hate to see you go.
Sun***
Going through exactly the samething right now. It hurts everyday. Its been 3 months now and things are still very difficult for me.If there was an easy way to kill myself I would have done it. But there isnt. Only time will help you. I struggle each day. i have just started taking sleeping pills each night. That gives my body a rest. Im just living day to day hoping I will be happy again one day.The only thing that keeps me going is that I was happy with her and maybe I can be happy with someone else oneday
Good Luck
Dont let her kill you,
I am not even going to try to understand what it feels like to loose the your love and watch her love another. I can’t imagine the pain that’s overtaking you. What I am going to do is tell you that there is NO pain that does not eventually heal. Death is not an answer. Because death is not the end! I’m not trying to scare you but I feel it’s my responsibility to tell you that more pain awaits after a deAth without god. Time is the answer. You are soooooo much stronger than you think you are. You were created for a purpose! Hold on. What I’ve realized through my experience with life is that the moments when you most feel like giving up , when you have reached you ends wit, is the moment when u should push through. That is the moment right before a break through! The darkest hours come before the dawn. Live! Smile ! Breathe! This is your life! Take it and make it the best you can … Don’t let it make you. I believe in you through the love of god in me. Let me encourAge you ! Simonecurr@aol.com
Listen pal, I have gone through all of it. I hated seeing happy couples, people holding hands all of it. Your not the only one this has happened to. Im still going through it! Ihave been going through it for three months and I would dream of her also. You have to go out there and be a better man. If she is with someone right after your relationship there is a good chance its a rebound and won’t last. so when she finds out it doesn’t work with him who will she choose, someone who is strong and has their life together or some one who is mopping around feeling sorry for themselves. I fucking totally feel your pain but you have to pull yourself together. Im doing it and so can you. pull yourself together man, because if it isn’t her someone else will notice you! I know how hard it is but you have to be strong. please trust me. I know