I cant stop crying.its been two days striaght.as i said ive lost it all.ive lost my wife,my confidence,my personality,and ive lost my mind.i cant get these fucking thoughts to stop.im loosing all control.i dont wanna die i have a four year old son and it would realy fuck him up.but im sooo dun
I’d recommend taking your son to some of your family members while you get things together. As for you I’d go talk to someone you can confide in, friends or family.
Ive done all that.i just managed to push everyone away.even my dearest friends are sick of me now.and the only advice i get is “change your situation,go out with friends go to the gym keep yourself occupied and eventually it will get better” but it hasnt its been 4 months and mentally i keep geting worse.i cant keep this up….my kingdom for a moments peace.im exhausted
That’s how I feel almost every day, like I’m going to lose it any day from the mental anguish. The only thing I can recommend if you’ve done all that is to try a therapist and perhaps some temporary antidepressants to stabilize your mood so you don’t do anything rash. I’m sure your wife wouldn’t want you to leave your son alone and by the looks of it you don’t either so consider those things.
First id like to thank both of you for your concern.REALY….ive seen a therapist and it doesnt help.my problem is i cant stand the thought of her with another man.it makes me physicaly ill thinking of it.and each day thats all i think of.i have these panic/ anxiety attacs at leat two or three times a day ovet it.i cant explain.the verry instant i oppen my eyes the feelings and thoughts rush into my head and stay there until i drink myself to sleep.i only get about 5hrs a night if im lucky.my kidnys have started hurting,and not even work is an escape.i hate every day i wake up…
Help seems fruitless sometimes as no body understands what your on about. I only see what I want to see and watch TV virtually 24/7 just blanks everything out cutting myself off from the pain broken marriages no work no purpose in life(near bankruptcy 750 pounds to find!)There must be a way for us all its hanging on in there till it dawns on you how to face going forward. No action is a decision I’m making my own facing nothing I have four children the youngest Luke I have for Access and that hurts I miss him so much all other times I do nothing to help my self move forward. Stuck in a rut no work no prospects no plan ! I hope you realise there is always someone worse off than you.
Ohh anthony…i know what its like to have no job man.its the worst feeling ever.the one time i did try to kill myself was when all this happened and i lost my job.it pushed me over the edge.and i know ppl have it worse my friend works at a childrens cancer clinic and she reminds me of that every day.i know this my sound hypocritical but dude press on.you said you need 750 “pounds” where are you from
Another sad man checking in. I’ve had a very bumpy ride and I feel like I’m near the end of it. I have a wife and a son, although I feel as though I’ve disconnected from both of them. Whilst I love them and do not want to hurt them, I do wonder if they’d be better off without me. I’ve failed as a provider (having lost 3 jobs in 3 years, and now I’m in a job that doesn’t make ends meet because that’s all I can get), I’ve failed as a husband and I’ve failed as a father. One day I’ll write about how I got to this point, suffice to say that things started badly when I was born and progressively got worse. All I can say to you gents (Anthony56 and f00l) is that I feel your pain, brothers.
Hey sans….i know the feeling of faiure.so what do we do? cant kill ourselfs because of the kids.knowing there father killed themselfs would fuck them up for life.WHAT DO WE DO!!!!…i guess just be happy for what you have dude your wife will still love you.for richer or poorer rite.im sitting here alone.not to downplay your situation at all friend.realy.im sure u realy hurt….what do we do
@f00l: I know. However, I’ve been deliberately isolating myself from those close to me, as I want to try and lessen the pain when I finally check out. I feel I’m getting close to checking out by the day: my plans are made, I have written instructions and letters to those whom I was close to prior to my self-isolation, and I no longer fear dying. Whilst I am concerned that my child may be affected by my actions, I feel I may do just as much damage if I were to continue living, and being miserable in doing so. It’s a no-win situation, but at least if I check out, then I won’t be in pain anymore.
Hi you said 750 could be found how ? I just can’t see how its nothing to some people maybe but to me in my current position its out of reach !can’t gets any credit and personally can’t ask family for anymore as borrowed before and not been able to return which when you borrow off your mum daughter and sister and not returned it kills you in side !they all had faith in me and I have let them all down for life ! I couldn’t ask a strange to throw his or her money so I can go bankrupt with little prospect of return could I
I chose various paths and my ex wives supported me so far my first marriage came to an end when I refused the snip my wife went for op it went wrong she ended in a coma and come out a different person and 6 months later gone rattled around. In a 5 bedroom detached house. Foggy for joint custody 2: half year battle meet second wife she supported me ended up 20 years later divorced and access battle just no strength left work has been a complete roller coaster ending in me taking on a shop from scratch as at 56 I can’t find work blown all the chances I have had as Ii have presses the self destruction button can’t stop this run away train and it frightens me
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hey f00l, sup?
I cant stop crying.its been two days striaght.as i said ive lost it all.ive lost my wife,my confidence,my personality,and ive lost my mind.i cant get these fucking thoughts to stop.im loosing all control.i dont wanna die i have a four year old son and it would realy fuck him up.but im sooo dun
I’d recommend taking your son to some of your family members while you get things together. As for you I’d go talk to someone you can confide in, friends or family.
aww im sorry, but things will get better, it takes soo long but it will, u gotta keep moving day by day to know what u really want
Ive done all that.i just managed to push everyone away.even my dearest friends are sick of me now.and the only advice i get is “change your situation,go out with friends go to the gym keep yourself occupied and eventually it will get better” but it hasnt its been 4 months and mentally i keep geting worse.i cant keep this up….my kingdom for a moments peace.im exhausted
That’s how I feel almost every day, like I’m going to lose it any day from the mental anguish. The only thing I can recommend if you’ve done all that is to try a therapist and perhaps some temporary antidepressants to stabilize your mood so you don’t do anything rash. I’m sure your wife wouldn’t want you to leave your son alone and by the looks of it you don’t either so consider those things.
First id like to thank both of you for your concern.REALY….ive seen a therapist and it doesnt help.my problem is i cant stand the thought of her with another man.it makes me physicaly ill thinking of it.and each day thats all i think of.i have these panic/ anxiety attacs at leat two or three times a day ovet it.i cant explain.the verry instant i oppen my eyes the feelings and thoughts rush into my head and stay there until i drink myself to sleep.i only get about 5hrs a night if im lucky.my kidnys have started hurting,and not even work is an escape.i hate every day i wake up…
Help seems fruitless sometimes as no body understands what your on about. I only see what I want to see and watch TV virtually 24/7 just blanks everything out cutting myself off from the pain broken marriages no work no purpose in life(near bankruptcy 750 pounds to find!)There must be a way for us all its hanging on in there till it dawns on you how to face going forward. No action is a decision I’m making my own facing nothing I have four children the youngest Luke I have for Access and that hurts I miss him so much all other times I do nothing to help my self move forward. Stuck in a rut no work no prospects no plan ! I hope you realise there is always someone worse off than you.
Ohh anthony…i know what its like to have no job man.its the worst feeling ever.the one time i did try to kill myself was when all this happened and i lost my job.it pushed me over the edge.and i know ppl have it worse my friend works at a childrens cancer clinic and she reminds me of that every day.i know this my sound hypocritical but dude press on.you said you need 750 “pounds” where are you from
Another sad man checking in. I’ve had a very bumpy ride and I feel like I’m near the end of it. I have a wife and a son, although I feel as though I’ve disconnected from both of them. Whilst I love them and do not want to hurt them, I do wonder if they’d be better off without me. I’ve failed as a provider (having lost 3 jobs in 3 years, and now I’m in a job that doesn’t make ends meet because that’s all I can get), I’ve failed as a husband and I’ve failed as a father. One day I’ll write about how I got to this point, suffice to say that things started badly when I was born and progressively got worse. All I can say to you gents (Anthony56 and f00l) is that I feel your pain, brothers.
Hey sans….i know the feeling of faiure.so what do we do? cant kill ourselfs because of the kids.knowing there father killed themselfs would fuck them up for life.WHAT DO WE DO!!!!…i guess just be happy for what you have dude your wife will still love you.for richer or poorer rite.im sitting here alone.not to downplay your situation at all friend.realy.im sure u realy hurt….what do we do
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@f00l: I know. However, I’ve been deliberately isolating myself from those close to me, as I want to try and lessen the pain when I finally check out. I feel I’m getting close to checking out by the day: my plans are made, I have written instructions and letters to those whom I was close to prior to my self-isolation, and I no longer fear dying. Whilst I am concerned that my child may be affected by my actions, I feel I may do just as much damage if I were to continue living, and being miserable in doing so. It’s a no-win situation, but at least if I check out, then I won’t be in pain anymore.
Hi you said 750 could be found how ? I just can’t see how its nothing to some people maybe but to me in my current position its out of reach !can’t gets any credit and personally can’t ask family for anymore as borrowed before and not been able to return which when you borrow off your mum daughter and sister and not returned it kills you in side !they all had faith in me and I have let them all down for life ! I couldn’t ask a strange to throw his or her money so I can go bankrupt with little prospect of return could I
I chose various paths and my ex wives supported me so far my first marriage came to an end when I refused the snip my wife went for op it went wrong she ended in a coma and come out a different person and 6 months later gone rattled around. In a 5 bedroom detached house. Foggy for joint custody 2: half year battle meet second wife she supported me ended up 20 years later divorced and access battle just no strength left work has been a complete roller coaster ending in me taking on a shop from scratch as at 56 I can’t find work blown all the chances I have had as Ii have presses the self destruction button can’t stop this run away train and it frightens me