Two years ago today, one of my best guy friends died of a heroin overdose. It’s still so hard to believe that he is gone.. I just can’t understand why he was taken from this world so young. Why is it that there are drug addicts living all over the world, and he tried it one time and he was gone.. I know it’s wrong but it just doesn’t seem fair. He is the first person that was so close to me that I ever lost. Seeing him lying there felt unreal. It just felt like a horrible nightmare. I still feel like one day I will wake up and he will be here. I still want to pick up the phone and call him to see if he’ll answer. The worst part is that I just sit here and wish that I could have stopped it. He used to like me and I always wonder if I had started dating him if this never would have happened. If I could have changed his actions. I regret every time he called and asked to hang out at midnight and I told him I was too tired to hang out. There are so many things I wish I could have said. I should have known. I should have done something. I’m so sorry. I love you and I miss you every day.
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Don’t you blame yourself! Don’t you dare. What happened happened. It was not your doing. You did not make him overdose. I am sorry to hear that you lost him but it wasnt your fault…i once had someone attempt suicide some i love and i blamed myself for it..but i know i didnt give her the blade and i didnt do the damage. You cant blame yourself..please dont