Isolation
Anxiety
Guilty
Yet Quiet
Pushing myself Slowly
………
Distractions
Still worried
Caring but
Really
Challenging
Missing
Emptiness
Lost
Frustrated
Sad
Reality I really do have too
Can’t go…
Near…
Supposed to move forward plus…
Others are happy.
Its like…
I never existed ever…
I always understood the fact where everyone always moves forward,
Abandoning others
I try so hard not to abandon other people though…
Even if i am mad,
Pissed off after we make up we still say hi and have a conversation but this time…
It will never happen.
That guilt and regret feeling.
It conqures more and more…
Each and every day again.
but at least I am starting to forget.
Starting to be self again.
Isolated
Alone
Quiet
Calm
I’m a hobbiest now.
Try something new
I will never be a princess
I shall not fall as quickly
I was a hopeless romantic
Just dreaming
But that really changed
Had to…
At least now.
Everything as a new chapter
Starting all over again
Just like I did 7 years ago.
but…
Without…
Hometown, good old friends.
Friendships are…
Too unfixable
Trust me
I screwed up big time this time.
But this time I know where I really messed up on.
Its not like previous.
Its worse.
Much more worse
Angry at self though
Lonely
Oi
I don’t want to leave
but
Reality I really do
Have too
Can’t go near…
Supposed to move forward plus…
Others are happy.
Its like…
I never really existed…
Ever…
I always understood the fact where everyone always moves forward,
Abandoning others
I try so hard not to abandon other people though…
Even if I am mad,
Pissed off after we make up
We still say hi and have a conversation but this time…
It will never happen.
That guilt and regret feeling.
It conqures more and more…
Each and every day again.
But at least I am starting to forget.
Starting to be self again.
Isolated
Alone
Quiet
Calm
I’m a hobbiest now.
Try something new
I know I am not and ever be a princess
I shall not fall as quickly
I was just a hopeless romantic
Just dreaming
But that really changed
Had to…
At least now.
Everything as a new chapter
Starting all over again
Just like I did 7 years ago.
but… worse…
Without…
Hometown friends.
Friendships are…
Too unfixable
Trust me
I screwed up big, this time.
But this time I know where I really messed up on.
Its not like previous.
Its worse.
Much more worse.
………………………………………
Sorry’s don’t cut it this time.
Not even an apology letter…
Can’t fight it as much…
Nothing will do.