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What’s the point?

by Butcheredpanda 8/22/2013

written by Butcheredpanda

I have posted here before, a while ago already.

Anyways, now I’m still in this mess, alone every single day, doing nothing. No one who cares about this, because “autism is the problem”. I will be starting therapy to deal with my autism in 2 weeks, so I guess that is a good thing.

Although i dont believe this is the “problem” I just let it run it’s course, I mean, all those psychiatrists are trained for it right? They sure must know it better than me?

Now I have been sitting home every single day, alone, for the past year, doing nothing at all. I rarely talk […]

8/22/2013 2 comments

I shouldn’t have made it

by street_smart 3/21/2013

written by street_smart

All the crazy emotional experiences have come and gone. Years has passed and time heals all wounds. Yet, here I am with all goals killed and/or died. I shouldn’t have made it through the experiences I experienced. Now here I am alive and empty. Somewhat like Salmon spawning. They swam upstream and laid their eggs. But unlike the salmon dying soon after, I’m still alive.
I’m not a young kid. I’m 50 and have a career. Here is my story. I lived the American dream. No, not a millionaire but I am ok making 89K a year. It all started about 5 years ago. At […]

3/21/2013 12 comments

They Did It to me…

by thomk 1/2/2013

written by thomk

A company who I spent three hundred dollars on their self help programs emailed me an ad trying to get me to buy more. I have been doing their programs all year! I definitely feel like I wasted my money on greedy people! Because they wrote me trying to sell me more with an ad titled “They Did it to me!” And that takes the cake!

I beg to differ. What does a person do when theyÂ REALLY did it to me, and in great numbers, continue to do it to me, and no matter what positive attitude have, no matter what fantastic in-genius ideas I have, […]

1/2/2013 1 comment

What I’m doing

by TheFinalNail 12/27/2012

written by TheFinalNail

I started playing video games once again, started planning out some music to record and quit reading these posts. Reading misfortune can get you down big time. I stopped taking pills and my Seizures are getting a little better. Find that release that gets you through tough days.

12/27/2012 1 comment

You have no idea

by I.cant.breathe! 12/16/2012

written by I.cant.breathe!

Me and my friend are sitting in my room im putting on makeup like i always do…i put it on my scars though not my face. and she just sits there staring at me “what? why are you staring?” i ask her “It’s just, you say your depressed. but why are you depressed you have no reason you have the perfect life! I mean, your popular, your beautiful, the dance is like two months away and you already have 23 boys wanting to take you! why are you so depressed?” I think about it, and i know the answer but it sounds stupid even in […]

12/16/2012 2 comments

what happens

by falling_soup 9/5/2012

written by falling_soup

what happens when your family is not there for you that the betray you… after my dad died and my brother moved out of the house i was left all alone with my mom and her Borderline Personality Disorder things changed big time we started fighting a lot more and things were not getting better I started cutting myself for a cry of help when the school therapist found out i stopped and they got CPS in to the picture a year later now that they are gone we have been seeing a family therapist once a week and i would show my arms so […]

9/5/2012 9 comments

Feeling… Lately…

by sleepxdeath 8/24/2012

written by sleepxdeath

Isolation

Anxiety

Guilty

Yet Quiet

Pushing myself Slowly

………

Distractions

Still worried

Caring but

Really

Challenging

Missing

Emptiness

Lost

Frustrated

Sad

RealityÂ I really do have too

Can’t go…

Near…

Supposed to move forward plus…

Others are happy.

Its like…

I never existed ever…

I always understood the fact where everyone always moves forward,

Abandoning others

I try so hard not to abandon other people though…

Even if i am mad,

Pissed off after we make up we still say hi and have a conversation but this time…

It will never happen.

That guilt and regret feeling.

It conqures more and more…

Each and every day again.

but at least I am starting to forget.

Starting to be self again.

Isolated

Alone

Quiet

Calm

I’m a hobbiest now.

Try something new

I will never be a princess

I shall not fall as quickly

I was a hopeless romantic

Just […]

8/24/2012 0 comment

Protected: i really don’t want to be here

by Casper 7/18/2012

written by Casper

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

7/18/2012 0 comment

I want to die. I want to go to heaven. I want to believe in God. I want, but never get.

by BlueBlackButterfly 12/27/2011

written by BlueBlackButterfly

This note is really long, so only read if you’re prepared. This is my story and how I feel. If you have something negative to say, please don’t say it. I’m not really sure what exactly I put in this note because i wrote it on a different site a few days ago, but I still feel the same. Sorry if there is any cussing and just to let ya know… This note wasn’t finished. I have many other things that trouble me daily, but I got tired of writing…

I donâ€™t see the point in life anymore. Iâ€™m not even sure if iâ€™m Christian anymore. […]

12/27/2011 5 comments

To All On This Site: Read This. It is for You!

by missesMask 4/21/2009

written by missesMask

First I want to thank everyone for their replies to my 3 prior posts. Thank your for your time and concern, we are all loving, worthy beings who are joined by our pain and plight to regain our joy! This is part of a conversation I had with a dear friend of mine, who was also suicidal. I was explaining to him about an interview I had recently with an elderly gentleman who had been suicidal in his 50s. This is an excerpt of the conversation, but it makes so much sense, and it is true for all of us. The first part is just […]

4/21/2009 2 comments