feeling empty and sad

my depression? it has spiraled out of control i feel like there is nothing in life that i can enjoy, everything is just dark and hollow, i feel alone i feel like i want to bawl my eyes out but i have cried to many tears for me to cry i feel like being dead would not be so bad no one would notice… i just feel like my life is worthless i feel like there is no body there for me, that i am on this all alone but i need some one i have done to many things alone i need someone there for me i want my ex back so bad i have a huge hole in my heart its been torn to pieces, i just need someone to make me feel important and love me but what i don’t get is when i saw my ex to talk to him he kissed me.. we kissed again and again then he says that its not over he says he just needs space he won’t talk to me he says he will be ready within a week and a half two weeks he is not into someone else someone says he is into someone he says he won’t be able to find someone more beautiful then me. he says he still loves me but this is only a short break he says he didn’t leave me for someone else he says he is still single I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO BUY I AM SO CONFUSED CAN SOMEBODY HELP ME?! on top of that i feel annoyed with school and home life WORDS CAN HURT