It’s been a long struggle but I’m willing to make it. Choose to live. For that I’m going to change my life even if it scares me to death, even if it’s going to be hard, even if chances are I’m not going to make it, even if many many people say I won’t make it. It’s gotten to a point in which I can’t lie to myself anymore, pretend that I’m someone else.
I read somewhere that instead of killing myself I should help others. Volunteer, help sick people that would give anything to have my health. I want to do that. I stopped caring about how much money I’m going to make or whether or not the whole damn world agrees with me. Actually the damn world can go fck itself for all I care. I feel free, liberated and no longer cry at night for stupid reasons. Someday, I’ll even be happy, who knows?I’m not out of the gutter yet but desperately want to.
I want to thank everyone that commented on my other posts and encouraged me. I hope you’ll find your inner peace and tame your demons to stop whispering lies to you. Depression lies, suicide is a lie.
4 comments
thats really great, its suprising how much progress i made when i decided i wasnt going to kill myself (well brother made me promise) i found i had put so much effort into trying to dye i had robbed myself of any tiny bt of joy that could have been. i wish you all the best
🙂 You can do it!
May the force be with you.
Wishing you all the best.
Glad you found your way, keep love in your heart and gaze out at the world with gentle eyes. You can do it.
Thank you for your kind wishes! My negative thoughts made me lose so many could have beens and chances. Nothing can stop me now. I’ll try to block out all the negativity from outside and inside and focus on better things and my surroundings. My goal is to make other people aware that they too can do it!