i’m like alot of people. sexually abused, drug addicted (but not using now), on meds, been in hospitals, tried to kill myself alot of times, cutter, can’t keep job very long, the usaul stuff the bi-polar people have and do. I’ve talked and talked, nothing helps. I always end up back at the same place. To die or try one more time. This time it’s different, i don’t have it in me to try any more. I live in a bad area and in the back of my head i wish one of the gun shots i hear would come at me. You see i’ve done everything that all the professionals have said and non-professionals too, it does not make the pain of living go away. It’s just time. But i’m afraid, not of dying, but not succeding.
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would you try talking to me please?
my email is daniellopez2316@ymail.com and my AIM is k3tk3tk3t
i’d really love to help you. all the pain you’ve gone through has no meaning without God. please talk to me.
The bi-polar plight is hard. I know personally. I probably have a milder form and it is mostly controlled by medication. But I see others struggle and it really is hard. I always wonder what it would like to be one of those “normal” people, who always seem to be happy. The one’s for whom tragedy passes their house and knocks on mine instead. Give me a shout if you need to talk. billyboy_2001@hotmail.com
I’ve felt the fear of failing an attempt too. If I fail, everybody’s gonna know and they’re going to stop me from trying again and it is much more shameful to face everyone. Or if I fail, I might not be able to try again because i’ve suffered severe brain damage or something like that and i’d just be someone they pitied. You can talk to me on my site. If you’re worried that i’m a preacher like that k3tk3tk3t guy, i’m not. I’m an atheist.