i never had a friend,never had a girlfriend,never had good parents or simply people that not hate me,nad for those i love,’m able to see through them and i care so much that they escape in fear,like if i’m a criminal or a monster… i either have a bad family situation,and people hated me from when i’m born,still talking of hate towards me it’s not right,because all my actions,all my words and arguments,everything,even this post,come from the idea of someone else, people i see in real life,on internet,in tv… for example when my dogs died i didn’t cry,i just said “what would do a normal person in this moment?” but i just stared at the nothing,acting like ever,and when my father have incidents i’m even happy for that,because that’s what a normal person do when someone they hate feels bad,or at least that’s what i learned in this horrible country,italy,where there’s not a single good person exist,all dickheads and bastards… i won’t even have the possibility to go away from here,because i’m only 16 without going to school from 2 years,and i’m not good in  nothing,neither waking up at the right hour,and this means just no work for me,or possibility to have a social life,and maybe i should really go in preson… but dying would be better,i’m gonna jump off the window with the head toward  earth tomorrow,at the 12:30 of italy,everyone that think could help me wants,they have 13,15 hours to save me.
but maybe i’ll survive,in that case nobody will come to see me at hospital,and i would just continue try until death.
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HI, im in the same situation. Wanna be my friend? Lets go together through this shitty world.
i doubt,i didn’t wrote everything in it,or it would’ve be just a post with random shit everywhere and nosense,but i can hear your,i think it’s probably the only good thing i am at,what a mess i can’t use this for nothing…
I don’t know how it works in Italy, but someday you’ll likely be able to leave home and country ifyou wish. Even if you don’t complete your education, you can still find a job to support yourself
it’s not the school i did,i’m just not able to do nothing.
Maybe right now you can’t. But once you start building job experience it gets easier. What are your passions? I’m sure someone would love to teach you in whatever field interests you. People seem to really enjoy tutoring kids who are passionate about something.
military,but with my physic and this nation,i can’t do it.
even here…
they were right saying that it’s the same everywhere.
i said about this to the last person i love in my life,after this,i’m gonna suicide really.
in the U.S. we have many branches of service. is it possible for you to serve in another country’s military or serve your country in some other way? have you talked to a recruiter about your options?
well,no,but i don’t know nobody that could answer those questions…
Again, I only know what they do in America, but we have army recruiting offices, marine recruiting offices, etc. why don’t you try looking up something nearby that could help you get the answers you need?
italy it’s a pacific nation,and other stuff i won’t say,but… do they in america accept militaries from other countries?
this is what I found:
“More than 30,000 foreign troops are enlisted in the US Army, many of them serving in Iraq. Their reward for risking their lives for their adopted country is US citizenship.
Since Sept. 11, 2001, the United States has granted US citizenship to 32,500 foreign soldiers. In July 2002, US President George W. Bush issued an executive order to expand existing legislation to offer a fast track to citizenship to foreigners who agree to fight for the US Armed Forces. About 8,000 non-Americans have joined the US military every year since then.
The foreigners already represent 5 percent of all recruits. They even make up the majority of soldiers from some New York and Los Angeles neighborhoods. Four years and 3,800 US deaths after the beginning of the Iraq campaign, fewer and fewer American citizens are willing to fight in a war opposed by a majority of the US population. But despite the Iraq war’s lack of popularity, US generals are demanding 180,000 new recruits a year.”
I don’t really know a lot about foreign enlistment, but you can probably find more info on the internet or with the military in your community. Also I’m not sure if you have to first live in America with a work visa or green card in order to enlist. One of my teachers did tell us about a friend of his who decided to join the French military. I’d say it’s possible, but again, I don’t know the details.
probably it is only if you have already something like you said… i don’t have neither an identity card,they won’t accept me…
it wouldn’t hurt to find out for sure. America isn’t your only option either. a government building would likely have the information you’d need if you want to move to another country. do you have to wait until you’re eighteen to enter the Italian military? many American schools have an ROTC program that helps you prepare to enter the armed services. if it’s possible to go back to school, you may find other branches in the military you can join
i… don’t know…
there’s too much stuff i don’t know… what if it end up being the worst choice?
school or the military? if enlisting in the military isn’t what you truly want to do, there are a ridiculous amount of fields you can enter. to be “happy” it’s best if you follow your passions in your career, but working at a plant can keep food on the table. You still have time to figure out who you are and where you want to go in life, but once you’re better informed on your options it’ll help with your decisions
i just don’t have nothing i’m good in…
that you know of 🙂 if it’s possible to go back to school, I’d recommend it because you can find your talents or your passions. it also opens a lot of doors for future employment. keep trying new things and you just might find something you enjoy
i’ve leaved school because it was the start of all my problems,i CAN’T retur to it,and anyway italian school it’s different from american or german or whatever,we’re an horrible nation for those.
is homeschooling or online classes possible? even without a formal education you can find work but I believe you go into the military with a lower rank (private instead of a sergeant)
i don’t mean can’t because of law…
I didn’t know if it was social or legal or family related, so I just threw out an alternative. why can’t you go back to school?
too much reasons… ignorance,people,etc… i don’t want to talk about it.
okay. does seeking another form of education interest you or would you rather go straight into the workforce? If you have to wait to be a certain age to enter the military or another field, you can always find a job now so you can get experience to feel more confident as you go into what you really want to do or study on your own
okay. does seeking another form of education interest you or would you rather go straight into the workforce? If you have to wait to be a certain age to enter the military or another field, you can always find a job now so you can get experience to feel more confident as you go into what you really want to do or study on your own
to be honest i would instantly work,and in fact i worked with my father,but it failed everywhere…
is that how you feel or how your father feels? if you feel like you let him down, why don’t you talk to him about it? If working with him didn’t work out, can he give you a referral for another business? simply working in fast food can give you an income, confidence, and job experience
i’m trying that with my mother,but there’s no hope…
and anyway the problem isn’t the work itself
then what’s wrong?
everything in simple words.
I get that that’s what it feels like, but unfortunately life is a little more complicated. why can’t your mom help?
a mother can’t create work from nothing.
you don’t have to work for your mother. I thought you meant she was helping you find employment somewhere else. Admittedly, the economy worldwide is hurting right now, so can you not find a job? you might have to settle for less until a better job opportunity opens up
i’m doing it from 1 year and 10 months,it’s not that easy.
I’m sorry, I don’t understand. have you been out of work for that long or is that how long you’ve been at a job you don’t like? I know words are easy and action is hard but once you climb out of the hole it’ll get easier
the first you said
change is hard but I bet it’ll help you feel better about your situation. I don’t know what employers have offered as a reason not to hire you, but if you take away that reason, they should be able to hire you. Obviously you do have experience by helping out your dad, so that should go in the plus column. If there truly is no work, why can’t you work for your dad again? how did you fail last time?
it’s not me,it was the shp that failed.
and i said again that the work isn’t the problem.
in some way you can say that i feel like this because nobody would accept my love…
in my opinion, you don’t need a serious girlfriend when you’re 16. finding love before you can actually live together and see how compatible you really are is rare. there are a lot of lonely people on this site who lost most of their friends or never had any. in that respect, you’re not alone. not going to school cuts you off from a lot of opportunities to find peers you’d consider to be your friends. you said you can’t go back to school partially because of some people. I interpreted that to mean you’ve been bullied. people who pull bullshit like that pick on other people to build up their own tiny egos. cutting yourself off from a wider range of people who may not all be like that would definitely contribute to your feelings now. are you mainly referring to your peers or also your family?
sorry if i say it but: fuck off,seriously,if you think that bullies could be a problem you’re idiot,i’gone trough this point after EVERYTHING.
and please,don’t say bullshit like the one at start message,i’m starting to hate you.
alright then
my mother pratically drugged me and i couldn’t do it anymore,but she also made me understand that i still have a possibility….i can still have a reason to live,even if it’s pratically impossible that it become a big reason,it’s still a chance…