Because Birthdays are supposed to be special, the make me feel more empty.
People always do nice things with their friends. I dont have anyone to do nice things with, even if I wanted.
The only people who have congratulated me were the ones here. That is just pathetic.
You would think there would be at least one person in my actual life that gives a shit.
In other news: my D-day is coming soon and I feel like I still need to do so much. But what? I mean really, there is not much I need to do before offing myself. I am a cowardly ****. If I keep delaying I will just keep on delaying. And I dont want that. I just need to do it on planned date. I have to.
Fuck. I really would have preffered to just use methadone.