I’m always trying to make everybody proud
But theirs this voice in back of my mind that is loud
Telling me “you’re worthless , you’re nothing, you can never be someone”
So I focus on the negatives, not knowing how amazing I’ve become.
I try to do my best everyday
But why can’t this voice just drift away?
The more I hear “you can’t do it”
I start to believe it
So the bottom of the Hole I hit.
I can’t find my way out
Nobody can hear me pleading when I begin to shout
“oh god help me please,
Give me the power to be released”
As I Pray I begin to see the light
Taking my fears away all throughout the night
The voice begins the drift away, disappearing out of sight
Cause in my mind it’s not welcome to stay.
God, please be my Savior rescue me from this pain
Because this voice in my head tells me I’m the only one to blame
Help me please, im on my knees pleading to your soul
Open the Richous path so I can FINALLY know
Am I welcomed here, or should I just go….
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“Righteous Indignation”
what proves your worthless and nothing??? never believe what people say! so what proves it?
Hello I have actually something quite amazing to share that happened to me tonight….in 1999 I lost my brother age 29 to suicide…….tonight myself I called a suicide hotline going thru some personal hell……I got some comfort so I later went onto facebook and I found a post one of my brothers friends put on his wall….it was about a 65 year or so older man that is still skateboarding….my brother was a great boarder….anyways I posted to tit “Awesome” and the following statement…..”and as my brother would say RICHOUS” —–I completely forgot how to spell Richous so I looked it up……and somehow this site came up on search……I decided to check it out and the first thing that comes up on the page was your poem. Prior to that I saw 711 — its what I see when I know my brother is with me. Your poem not only shocked me and sent shivers it also touched me because what you wrote is how I feel. I think my brother lead me to you. Thank you — you are definately someone who should not go…..if you had you wouldn’t have been there for me.