Hello i am 21 years old and a survivor of rape. I was raped over a period of 4 years. Life has not been the same for me since. I started self-harming when i was 13 two years after the rapes started. It quickly became an obsession for me and i am now addicted to it. It is the only thing that will take the pain away for me. I really feel now that my need to die is greater than my need to live. It is all i think about he has won and i have lost. I have tried to be strong but this is no longer is the case i am giving up slowly. I cannot seem to function anymore i was happy i was a happy kid and now i am an isolated depressed adult. Life for me is just not worth it anymore.
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please do talk. I know how u might feel about death. I also think about it all the time and i feel that live has no meaning to me. please dont kill ur self. talk to someone, there has to be some one there. I have never been raped and i hope i never shall, but im so sorry that it had to happen to you. please u feel the need to talk to someone im here. Im only 14 but im great at listening, and maybe thats all u need, for someone to listen to u. please dont do it. talk, be heard. thats why God gave us a vocie.
p.s. u can reach me at http://www.myspace.com/freemysoul2
Sorry, if I am digging up old wounds, but I’m going thru a really tough time right now and I just don’t know if it will ever get better. Do you feel that you are a lot better off today than when you first posted this.