Hi, my names Cathy and im 14 years old. 😉
I was cyber bullied a year ago. Never thought it would ever happen to me. Since then i have very low steam on my self. I have very strong depression. I had looked at the world very different then. I would be one of those people who would mind their own business and just be happy for who they are. But.. I don’t think i will ever return to being that girl. One of the reason to this are because…. the bully goes to my school. ;L I see her everyday, she is in my class. I have told the school about how its just strange being around her and i feel threatened. But they just said ‘Just forgive for what had happen’ … That was never going to happen. I also found out that my so called ‘dad’ abused my mum…it would come to time that he would also abuse me. I just blocked this out of my head for a while and it came back to me. I can’t work in school properly now. My grades have went down. Trying to cover it by saying excuses.
I now cut myself. I had my risk stitched once. Cut too deep i guess. Few weeks ago i tried suicide (Not my first attempt) . I was seconds away from hanging myself. I dont know why I stopped.
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Cathy,
First… ouchers. Sorry to hear the cyber thing hurt you so deeply. There is a song that I heard that I think matches up with you….. There is one line that really hits it home (The prisoner that it really frees is you).
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h1Lu5udXEZI&noredirect=1
I hope you will listen to it.
Hey Cathy,
its like reading a diary entry of mine 8 years ago… you might feel like you are in a dark room with no windows or doors. No escape. But hey here are good new for you: THERE IS A DOOR!!! So keep looking for it, you are close! I am already outside waiting for you, would love to play some soccer but need someone to play with me…so boooring alone :/ You here me screaming? Caaatthyyy…you wanna be the goal keeper or an outfield player?? omg, the sun feels so good on my skin :))) I tell you, the first moment when you open the door and the sun shines on your face is like heaven. You never want it to end 😀 😀 Whohooooo
I’m sorry Cathy… I completely understand what your going through. I cut myself and I get bullied and pushed around. I was so close to suicide server all times. Stay strong<3