I’ve never felt like i’ve belonged anywhere.On paper i have a pretty perfect life… but i spent 10 years with a secret that drove me to depression.Now the secret is out, i feel like i lost that one thing that defined me for so many years…i dont know who i am anymore.my mom and my bf love me and im trying to survive for them but i dont wanna live.i want to stop existing.it hurts my bf when i tell him that but if suicide is selfish isn’t it equally selfish to force someone stay alive? y wont he let me die…I don’t wanna hurt them but maybe i should do stg for myself for once…
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You have people that cares about you, they love you… don’t you love them? Why do you want to leave them? Aren’t you happy with them? If you don’t know who you are right now, trust me, killing your self wont fix anything, wont give you the answer. Is not selfish of them try to keep you alive, they truly care, you have to be brave, you may be confused right now, you said you don’t know who you are… but we don’t come to this life with a manual, we all have to go through things, hard times, bad times, life is a mistery, life is fucked up, sometimes unfair, sometimes just sucks! But is our job to figure it out, to find our way through it, be happy if we want to, the way we wish to be; the way I see it, there is nothing impossible, not even happiness, we just have to work hard, nothing comes easy… We all have issues, we all have crisis, but at the end of the day, we can all look up and see how beautiful life could be, if we only try…
allalone18, I feel the same way.