I don’t want to live anymore. I hate life, I hate everything. I really want to take my life away but I can’t. I’m a Christian and believe in God. I don’t want to go to hell. My life is pointless. I go to these “special” classes, only two and I hate it. I was doing bad in school and got put there last year. That’s like telling me I’m dumb or something. I get a headache when I get there, I’m not the same. I tried asking my mom to put me in regular classes like the rest of my friends. I’m not dumb I’m just not trying. My mom thinks I’m ok but I’m not. Right now Im in my room. My mom is making me choose regular classes or give away my dog. Like what the fuck you know I love my dog. My dog is my only friend, I love him so so much. He’s going to die soon cause his already old. My life sucks. I failed twice and I hate school. I get bullied and stuff. Can I please die please….
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Not trying to persuade you to off yourself, but committing suicide doesn’t send you to hell. There’s not a verse in the bible that is against suicide, and it’s not the unforgivable sin. God will forgive you, just try anything and everything possible to not do it and turn your life around. If you can’t bare living, he will forgive you. You won’t go to hell, don’t listen to people who say that, it’s bull shit.
I was going to bed, but I can’t now because I just read your piece dekaash. I’m not going to comment on anything to do with religion.
I’m going to risk not making it for my interview, because I feel I have to write something for you.
You life is not pointless.
You are not dumb.
I want you choose the regular classes and keep your dog. Your love for your dog and your worry over him because he’s old and going to die soon – ow, that just makes me tearful too.
You go to class, and you do what you can in class. When somebody picks on you, I want you to bully him back. Can you do that? Once you stand up for yourself against the bully, the bullying will stop! Will you do that?
I’m going to chat with you tomorrow about the school part. I have to sleep now. Love you, Dekaash! Sweetie, think good thoughts in the meantime.
Hi Dekaash. Having a strong faith in God is a good thing to have in one’s life, especially when dealing with a difficult time. I know that you don’t want to be in those special classes, but just do your best and you’ll be in regular classes again. Stand up to those bullies. They are cowards on the inside.