The unwanted child

I’m 24 years old. I have a bachelor degree. I can’t find a job. I live with my parents. Everyday I feel like they don’t want me at home. Their home. I don’t feel like it is my home anymore so I spend all the time in my room trying not to disturb them. When my mother was pregnant of me she took a overdose of pills not caring about the baby. My dad didn’t want me to be born and the doctors said I was going to have serious health problems because of the overdose. So it was better to abort me they said. However I was born. And I feel so sorry. My mother says I shouldn’t be born and once while we were having dinner she said I’m worthless for not being able of finding a job and she wished she had done what the doctors told her to. My dad just stays there and doesn’t say a word. I also have older sisters. Everytime my parents talk to them in front of me they feel the need to humiliate me and they tell me how good my sisters are at what they do. I am good at many things too mom and dad. You just don’t care. I can draw and paint. I now many languages and I’m good at studying. You just don’t want to see it. It’s hard to find a job now because of the economic crisis and it is depressing enoug. But they say it’s my fault…
I avoid looking at their faces and saying a word because I feel so sorry for existing and making them dislike me everyday. I wish I could end this but I lack the courage to do so. I don’t have a life. I don’t have friends. I cry alone in my room everynight and I feel like a prisioner in my own room and body. It’s sad to be born and having to know every day you are not desired. I wish I was never born. I feel so sorry… I hope one day I’m able to make them proud of me.