why why why is the question i get asked everyday .
why are you sad why are you mad why are you hurt why are you depressed . why why why
why are you cutting why are you suicidal why do you wanna die .
why do you feel so alone .
and i just sit there and cry cause to be completely honest i dont know why i dont why i am such a mess or when it began.
i dont know why i wanna kill myself i just feel like it would be the best thing .
my bestfriend kellis commited suicide today . i called him he didnt answer . i text him no response .
i called his house straight to voicemail. last night he told me he loves me no matter what . i called his mom told him to be aware of him. the funny thing is why am i sooo concerned about him when i am in the exact same mind set as him DEATH.
his mom came home some thing wasnt right to quiet no music she has to go up and find her son dead .
i am so mad so hurt i am fighting this battle wanting to take my life every fucking day and my bestfriend my everything is dead he is gone and never returing .
his suicidal note said he loves his family
and me his bestfriend .
so why why why is the question i get asked everyday ,
and then i ask myself why am i still on this earth .
2 comments
we spend so much time asking questions which have no answers. sorry for your loss. life sucks.
Take the good things about him and make them a part of you as you do everything you can to break free from this and live a life to make you both happy. Every now and then, do things for him that he would have liked. Your pain is great, no doubt of that. But you can learn from this and see the heartache his choice left behind.
I don’t believe in souls or afterlife. This is it. And it’s gone for him now. Don’t let it be gone for you too when there is so many years of possible good times ahead.