A week leading up to my death, well that will be worth documenting. Next week my family is out of town, which means I will have plenty of time to die. So now I know the date, am I scared? No. Excited? Possibly, at least more so than scared. It feels kind of like planning a fun camping trip except I will not come back. Either way, planning is fun, or that could be my OCD, I don’t know. So what will my last day look like? Well I will wake up probably late and take plenty of time to rest. I will smoke a lot of weed and pack my bag, containing my camera equipment, writing utensils, some booze, perhaps some pills, a lot more weed, an mp3 player, my last meal and the supplies necessary with my method of preference. I will head out to the woods and walk around a bit probably late in the afternoon, I will smoke some, listen to music, write a bit, maybe shoot some footage. And then it will be time to hide out and wait for the night. I might eat my last meal by then. Then I’m going to write some notes and turn on my camera. I will say some goodbyes to the camera, prepare my method, smoke some more, drink some, maybe take some pills, and then it’s time for the big finale, baby. Sounds like a pretty good plan eh? Tomorrow it is time to buy the necessary supplies, and to be honest, I am looking forward to it.
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thi ssounds similar to what I had planned. bringing a rope to an alley way that’s mainly dirt and i think some trees. It would definitely be nice to get at least a little drunk before doing it but considering i’m only 18 and already drank all of my families beer, it’ll probably have to be done dry.
best of luck to you and hopefully everything goes well.
8Going to hang from a tree myself, most likely. I am not even seventeen myself, but live in a country where I can buy some beer/wine/other weak alcohol for myself so that will be no issue, also: liquor cabinet.
Love and Blades: Have you considered a dress rehearsal? Do your day like you described–go camping, smoke weed, listen to music, but no killing yourself or hanging. Come back from the first trip. Then when you decide it’s time, you would know exactly what you are doing and it will all be familiar.
ctb: thank you for your reply, I like that idea and might do that later this week, but probably no camping, as it’s not allowed in the woods I plan to do it, and I don’t want to risk trouble. I’d probably head out in the afternoon and come back early in the evening.