uSo this may be a Long story. Im 15 Nd Im n Foster care. Its been about 2 years I was put in the system because of abuse. My mom is a lesbian Nd her girlfriend physically abused me. My mom even would help. Ive been to sheppard pratt Nd brook lane mental hospitals. Ive been on zoloft trazedone melatonin tenex celexa seraquil lexapro doxipin and respidol. Different mixtures of antidepressants anxiety sleeping Nd antiphyscotic drugs. Im not crazy tho. I feel Like my life is falling apart Nd Noone can help me. I absoluly haré my life n I dont know what to do. Ive tuought about suicide alot lately I know its not the best choice but Wht else is.a person with no hope to do. Ive post everything family frenns my will to live. Im the weirdkid n school. Noone ulikes me. I have. Bf but he doesnt understand how sick i am. I wish someone did. i love him so much Nd i feel like if i lose him, i wouldve lost everything………….
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Hi, silentsuffering.
Being in foster care must not be easy. There *are* a few really good stories of people who have been placed in foster care, found good homes, and went on to be successful; having good, healthy, lives.
Unfortunately, a lot of them, like you, have been victims of rather horrific abuse, and as a result are in significant psychological distress; even though their environment *may* be safe, the trauma they’ve experienced seriously impairs their functioning.
You may have a ‘caseworker’, whom you should try and communicate with to discuss difficulties you’re having. It does take a lot of time to process all the trauma you’ve experienced; people living with their own families who’ve gone through traumatic experiences struggle, so for someone having to live in foster care, it’s likely going to be even more hard.
Please talk to your foster family and perhaps someone in the foster care program (your doctor(s), even) of your distress, that you’re not coping – you can’t be expected to be alright in a short space of time; it takes some (many) years (unfortunately) to come to terms with the abuse inflicted on them (particularly by their own family) and start to function better; but, many, who’ve been in your situation, *have*, after lots of therapy and support.
Communicate; try to find (healthy) stuff you’re interested in, that makes you feel good and helps you cope; it’s a tough road, unfortunately, but with support, you can get through this, get better, and live well.
All the best to you.