I am so sad and lonely I just want to die I’m 17 and I’m married I live with my mom and grandma and my sister I got married cause I thought it would have made my boyfriend stop cheating witch it did but I always wonder when he gets mad he hits me or he hits himself and spits his blood at me I cut because I’m tired of being emotionally hurt I rather feel a different pain but when my husband sees my cuts he slaps me and squeezes me where I cut and makes me cry but he hits me and tells me to shut he has tazered me and just laughed he would hand cuff me until the metal indented in my wrists I’m so sick of it I just want to die and my mom always telling me that I need to leave no one wants me around she says my dad don’t love Me my brother always makes fun of me my sisters say I’m married I should leave and that I don’t belong here I want to die so bad I have nothing in life I am just ready to let go :'(
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save up money for a divorce lawyer.. or kill him(wouldn’t recommend this option).. those are pretty much your only options… unless you can call the police and get him arrested or something..
first get him out of your life, next you can deal with your family problems..
17 is young.. seriously, get out of there as soon as you can
or talk to someone to see if you can get a restraining order against him.. just be careful if you think your family would take his side.. that would be scary
Well they don’t know an he gets suicidal on me but he’s the only person I have to talk to I say that I want a divorce but then he hits me more and starts crying my family feels sorry for him an blame me for everything I had to go to the hospital cause he cheated on me so I got suicidal and he tried going out with my sister I hate him he made me have trust issues he had sex with a 16 year old and that’s the first time we got into a physical fight he was 18 at the time I don’t trust him he made me hurt so bad all the scars I have are cause of all he has put me through I hate my life and he just laughed when he cheated on me
If you catch a guy cheating on you, your first thought should be to leave him NOT marry him. Why would you want to put up with him for the rest of your life? I’m sorry, but that was just a bit naive marrying someone like that out of hope that he’ll change and I can’t believe your parents gave their consent to that.
At this stage, if you can’t get a divorce.. and you can’t kick him out.. leave. Go stay with a friend or something until you find your own place. It’s more harmful than beneficial for you to stay there.
And you should stop the self inflicted harm.. a) he may be overreacting because he is suicidal too, b) its not good for you.
Although perhaps you shouldn’t be complaining about the physical abuse if you’re really after physical pain. One option instead of self-inflicted harm and physical pain, could be to pick up a sport or exercise which is physically exhausting as a sort of outlet and to take your mind off things..
leave this motherfucking scumbag. im tired of seeing girls with these asshole douchebags that intentionally hurt them and treat em like shit. You gotta leave this guy. I know the emotions are so mixed because a part of you feels so dependent and attached. You gotta go with your head and not your heart on this one. Break the ties. Do what you need to do. Talk to people. Get help and reach out like you’re beginning to do now. You don’t deserve this pain. He feels so shitty about himself that he’s trying to drag you down to his level and make you feel worse. He has made you feel trapped and hes manipulated you which is plain to see. Leave now.
I’m so lost thank you for your edvice I would like to leave him but with out me he would have nobody I do love him but I’m just tired of this shitty life it’s sad because no one sees how sad I am I hate him but I can’t let him go I just rather end my life instead of lettin this pain build I am not a very out spoken person it’s hard for me to speak how I feel I have no where to go I live way out in a country where I know no one ? I use to live in Oregon where I could just leave but now I live in a state where I have no friends no one to talk to the friends I have I don’t know to well to trust them i tell him I want a divorce but he hits me and yells at me and scares me I’m sorry for my life that angers you I never please anyone I just always wanted to die because I was never treated right I grew up being hit an molested so I guess I’m use to how I’m treated but I’m just so sick of it now
Look into community services where you can start getting help. You have to start severing the ties if you want any sort of catharsis. I know you’re torn and feeling many things but the fact that you spoke out on this forum is a sign that you want out. That you know that you don’t deserve this pain. That there’s something better for you out there. You can’t think about him anymore. If you leave he’d be able to take care of himself. He says those things to manipulate you to stay and feel bad for him. You gotta put yourself first and stand up and move forward out of this cycle.
I’d like to point out that you said that you can’t leave him because he would have nobody. Reality check.. if you kill yourself, you are also leaving him. And in truth, he probably deserves to have nobody – no one should be treated like that.
You should’t be treated like that and if he has cheated on you then if it was me I would have dumped him not married him, however you say that you love him. He shouldn’t treat you like that. If you don’t want to leave him (which I would because he shouldn’t treat anyone like that) then you should go to a group or talk to someone about it.