There’s no way to describe my depression, hurt, rage, and emotional pain. So many people have hurt me, turned me away, and just treated me like shit. I can’t fucking take this anymore!
I don’t care who the fuck gets traumatized as they witness my death in a busy mall or airport. I WANT THEM TO BE TRAUMATIZED. Fuck you, society! I hate this lousy, Godforsaken planet, and everyday, I hope that an asteroid or nuclear war wipes it the fuck out!
I also don’t care who the fuck misses me. They won’t be my fucking problem anymore. People don’t give half a shit about me, so why should I care about them?
Who will miss me anyway? I have no fucking friends, and I don’t know why! I USED to be very nice, caring, and compassionate. As of now? My broken heart and shattered soul can’t take any more pain, and it’s quite clear I’m a worthless piece of shit, and no one wants to be around me.
My only companion from now, until the day I die, is my Remington 870. Thanks a lot, everyone. Look at what the fuck you turned me into. You want me dead? You will get your fucking wish.
I know I don’t sound very appealing right now, but anyone that’s looking for a friend…just let me know. (Yes, I’m THAT desperate)
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We are alike a lot it seems
I felt like I was reading one of my own thought, how you feel about people and want them traumatized. To me, you still sound appealing because I know you are like that because of this damn life and the pain forged us that way. I would be pleased to be your friend, love_charmed_p3@hotmail.com feel free to come talk to me ( I know, terrible e-mail address)
I’m sure you can make bunch of friends on here if you reach out. Personally I’m not very good at that, sigh. Boston, Massachussets?
Do you really think you’re a “worthless piece of shit?” Or is that just what other people seem to think of you?
Do you define yourself? Or do others define you?
Whose definitions of you, do you choose to validate?
Whose opinions, methods and criteria of judgment, do you value? And why?
Do you, perhaps, feel as though people are too busy judging you for things you can’t control, while ignoring the efforts you’ve made to improve?
If people do not understand how to properly assess your value, then they are not qualified to determine or define your “worth.”
They will try, and they will form opinions, and they might believe and insist they are right… but all you have to do is know better, and decide what you think their errant judgement is actually worth, to you. And if you disagree with the way they come to their conclusions, then you don’t really have to place any value at all, upon their opinions.