I don’t want to die, but I made my mind: I have to. Unfortunately, I’m such a coward! It’s been month since I took the decision of killing myself. Months… And I keep postponing it, like everything else in my life… I would like it to be easy, but it’s not. It’s so hard to think to myself “This is the last time I see him/her. The last time I eat chocolate. The last time I take a bath.”, for everything…
I think that my suicide is so difficult to commit because I took the decision with my brain, not with my guts. I’m unhappy, I’m depressed, but I’m not suffering a lot, compared to what I used to those past 12 years.
But I NEED to die! I know deep inside me that I can’t have a happy life. I’m too broken… I have always been.
I need courage.
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Do you want to die? Reply back yes or no, and I will give you the PERFECT advice.
I don’t want to die. But I don’t want to live either. I wish I was never born. I don’t want to exist anymore. I want to die without knowing it. I’m scared to actually do it.
Can I get some perfect advice too.
Everyone’s broken in their own special way – some are better at hiding it than others, but everyone has the ability to live despite their brokenness, and find ways to feel better and live better than they have in the past. The key is knowing that the more broken you are, the more you know the cause of your brokenness, and the more you should be able to realistically alter your trajectory in life towards that “something better.” When you’re broken, it’s not like how a car engine breaks, it’s more like how a plant breaks. Depending on the species of plant, it’s entirely possible that being broken won’t hinder its ability to maneuver around the hardship and keep reaching for the sun.
The fact is, nobody needs to do anything except in relation to an outcome they want to reach. Eliminate the need to control the outcome, and life becomes a lot easier to cope with. Reduce the tendency to make comparisons, and value judgements based on them, and even the worst circumstances can become tolerable and full of wonder.
The thing is… I’m 27. I was 15 the first time I tried to kill myself. I don’t know what it’s like to be happy. I tried to “fix” myself, but I can’t. I’m hopeless… No matter what I do, I’m unhappy. I don’t want to keep trying, I’m too tired.
Still awaiting this perfect advice. 🙁
I’m sort of the same, though I now know a lot of less painful ways to die. So now I feel like I can just off myself whenever. http://jiutsu.motionsforum.com/t2-methods-partial-hanging-suspension …here’s a way to go. But yes I wish we had a button on our bodies that we could just press to die. Just pass out, go to heaven, and fly around exploring. My advice is negative, not positive at all lol . . . . . .
I’m still awaiting it too. I just went blank 🙁
Dawhh thought you were going to say something life changing 🙁
I thought I was too until I realized how much I suck ._. sorry guys and girls
i always thought that too when i was 12 but now im 15 and getting better and hep by the minute