I’ve been feeling really sad lately and that’s because my life sucks too much. I am living in my new place in the worst area of Oakland, CA. 4 to five years ago I was in a homeless shelter, right now I am in a sober living place and I am the youngest of all, the rest is 25 and over. The last place I was living at, the place where I got to develop new relationships have banned me from the facility because I trash the house. I have no money, no family, and nothing that a normal person would have. I am glad I don’t have family, they are just more pain for me. I curse the day I was born and blame it on my parents for bringing me to this horrible world. Non-existing and better than existing. I have this, and everything bye.
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You have us, and we can help you. Obviously you’re on here for a reason. And that’s because you just want someone to know how you feel. Otherwise you wouldn’t be here sharing this with others you know can relate to you. I don’t want you to kill yourself, and I’m certain others can agree. I’m sorry for everything you’ve been through, but you just gotta keep going. You might not want to, and you might not know how to, but that’s why you shouldnt kill yourself. You have a whole life time to figure it out. And although we might suffer along the way, it’s the destination that counts. Don’t give up. Just don’t.
Why shouldn’t you kill yourself?
Just because you are in a tight spot does not mean it is permanent. Life is perennial and capricious, it is always changing for the better and for the worst. Life could be analogized as a river or a current, it’s beyond our control in most aspects, so what’s the point in fighting it? Work with what you have, change is inevitable, and if you devote energy, will and thought it will change for the better. The first step is to create goals. What do you want in life? The next step is making a plan. What’s the first step to reaching this goal? How can I fulfill this step? Take it slow, figure things out and it will come to you. Your life is founded on inheritance but malleable to your desire. You *do* have control in your life, don’t overlook it. Existing is as valuable as you’d like it to be, there’s so much more to life than living this modern, industrial lifestyle. There’s more to life than routine and money, there’s so much more to life than the opinions of others and contemporary culture, life is ambiguous and that ambiguity is what makes it worth living.
^I read that with “The Wicker Man” by Iron Maiden playing in the background. It was ironic, hearing someone shout “YOUR TIME WILL COME” over and over again. Like my life could actually change instead of being one long stream after the waterfall.
OP – What keeps you from having what a normal person would have? What do you want?
The Normal Person is a mythological beast that exists in the minds of all people who aspire to not be.. whatever it is they are… which in turn makes them, ironically, normal. I’d rather be abnormal and find out what that’s like instead.
oh honey, it seems like it will never end, the pain and lonlienes, liveing in the dark while everyone lives in the sun!!, go east honey, go east and dont look back