I want to end it

For a while now, I have seriously been considering suicide. I am not bullied or anything, I just feel like I don’t belong here. I don’t think anyone would miss me and I am better off dead. I don’t see a point in living anymore. No one loves me, how could they? I want so bad to be happy, but I just can’t. I still can’t think of a reason why I shouldn’t just end it all. I have considered many ways, from choking myself, starving myself, cutting myself, overdosing on pills, and even stabbing myself. I just can’t do it anymore. Everyday I can feel myself growing distant and nothing excites me anymore. Very little things make me happy, and I don’t want to feel like this anymore. My friends won’t miss me, and my parents probably don’t even give a crap. I told my mom about my cutting, and she just told me to stop. Everytime I do it, she just yells at me instead of actually helping me. She blackmails me and says if i don’t do something she wants me to do, she will tell everyone that I cut and that I am unstable. I have no further reason to live. The only things that make me happy are some of my friends, one direction, and some youtubers. Someone please help me.