hello

greetings,
well where do i start?
Im 17 and in my last year of school. i didnt know i would ever make it to year 12 but i have and this could possible be the worst year of my life. i feel tired all the time, i’ve began to cry over simple things like it being too hot while walking home. at night i think about how i could kill myself so i dont wake up thinking about how much im going to fail this year. everyone tells you year 12 is the most important year and at the moment i dont believe in myself to be able to complete it. I’ve stopped cutting since 6 months ago, but i feel worse, i feel like waking up is all to much for me. i never feel happy except when im with my boyfriend but i cant see him everyday. i’m tiring myself out with tryin to remain doing tutoring, exercuse, a musical instrument and more tutoring.

i went to a party where you’re expected to have fun but instead i spent my last 2 hours of the party crying, i was crying till 3 in the morning. i just wish i could relax and feel happy, but i feel like i’ll never be that ever again