There are no miracles; I can’t get through this storm.
I can’t even leave my house (again) to do anything useful today. I am totally useless (completely). Perpetual limbo on repeat- between a dead life and death.
I’m that blue (brown) eyed whore. I am that little girl. I am her. There’s no one to help me through this storm.
Here is PJ Harvey on Autoharp, lovely version of Down by the Water.
I lost my heart
Under the bridge
To that little girl
So much to me
And now I moan
And now I holler
She’ll never know
Just what I found
That blue eyed girl
She said “no more”
That blue eyed girl
Became blue eyed whore
Down by the water
I took her hand
Just like my daughter
Won’t see her again
Oh help me Jesus
Get through this storm
I had to lose her
To do her harm
I heard her holler
I heard her moan
My lovely daughter
I took her home
Little fish, big fish, swimming in the water.
Come back here, man, gimme my daughter.
Little fish, big fish, swimming in the water.
Come back here, man, gimme my daughter.