Doomed from birth.  Where is the justice in life?
And it’s not about karma there is no karma. I know so because I am one of life’s “freaks”. If I had a past life, I had the same essence, the same personality I have now. Otherwise I’d be a totally different person. I am an innocent creature. Never was a bully. Never was even clever or strong enough to figure out how to bully the bullies. But god made me a freak anyway.
Maybe god prefers the freaks.
http://www.thehumanmarvels.com/
I don’t believe in heaven but if I did- these people deserve to be there more than anybody. And if I were god I’d give them first spot in the heaven queue and I’d apologize for what nature did to them.
“Hateful day when I received life!’ I exclaimed in agony. ‘Accursed creator! Why did you form a monster so hideous that even you turned from me in disgust? God, in pity, made man beautiful and alluring, after his own image; but my form is a filthy type of yours, more horrid even from the very resemblance. Satan had his companions, fellow-devils, to admire and encourage him; but I am solitary and abhorred.” – Frankenstein
“He therefore turned to mankind only with regret. His cathedral was enough for him. It was peopled with marble figures of kings, saints and bishops who at least did not laugh in his face and looked at him with only tranquillity and benevolence. The other statues, those of monsters and demons, had no hatred for him – he resembled them too closely for that. It was rather the rest of mankind that they jeered at. The saints were his friends and blessed him; the monsters were his friends and kept watch over him. He would sometimes spend whole hours crouched before one of the statues in solitary conversation with it. If anyone came upon him then he would run away like a lover surprised during a serenade.â€Â  – The Haunchback of Notre Dame
“The body apologizes to the soul for its errors, and the soul asks forgiveness for squatting in the body without invitation.â€Â  – Wicked by Gregory Maguire
4 comments
We are all beautiful creatures in God’s eyes he created us all with a purpose. The challenge of life is to find this purpose and embrace it, I don’t know in what way you believe you are a freak but I do know that some one out there has it worse, you have to try your best to focus on the positives in your life and life around you. Every time you think of yourself in a negative way you plant a seed of darkness and pain and continuing to do so will only make it flourish.
Have you looked at the website, itdoesmatter? God might have created deformed people for some purpose or other but that does not make it right. God has not done a good job creating people like me that were better off dead.
You could try joining a support group either online or in the community where people have similar issues. It might make a difference.
I would agree with the Duke, but I would go even more broadly than that. Get involved in any online community. Find something you like to do online. Play online games. Chat about how much you hate doctors (we all do). The internet has opened up a lot of opportunities to not be judged for your appearance. Just try not to be too negative, people don’t like that.
I know it’s not ideal, and there’s nothing I can say that can fix your problems, but these things can help distract you from them. You might even find something to look forward to each day.