ToRtUrE

Sometimes i go through my day wishing i hadnt woken that morning. Life is a constant struggle and always seems to find a new way to throw another unfortunate event at my face. Ive been through hell and back to the point where i dont feel physical pain. Its like tyson could beat my face in and i wouldnt shed a tear. Its not until you criticize me with your words that i break like a twig. The amount of physical torture ive endured because you are so careless about others emotions. It seems u take advantage of every possible chance you get put me down. You beaten me so much to the point were i dont feel pain. I wish i could feel the pain a normal person would feel the last time i fought you and you proceeded to drive a knife 3in into my thigh but i cant because im so accustomed to the daily torture that u cant harm me physically anymore so youve now turned to verbally destroy me on a daily basis cuz you know thats what will hurt me.its funny how someone with the same blood running through their veins can have the urge and ambition to torture me to the point where thoughts of ending it run through my head daily. You tell me to kick the chair after you find my suicide notes…disturbing how u take pride in kicking someone when theyre down. Well soon or later im going to stop being such a ***** and just end it all so i can be at peace for the first time in my life. One of these times im going to use that rope that u tell me to hang myself with daily and ur gonna see me hangin from my window for the whole neighborhood to see. I wonder what would be going through ur mind then.
A lot ppl think that ppl are driven to suicide because theyre lonely or they want attention but many neglect to see the struggle that many of us have from bullying., Bullying has always been a part of my life and always seems to follow me. My case is different than most mostly because it occurs in my own home. I wake up everyday knowing the person the next room over is going to make my day a living hell. Well if ur still reading this its probably cuz ur suffering from the same pain as me but your reasonings are totally different. Well peace hopefully we’ll see ya tomorrow. Odds are high i will cuz no matter what i plan to do to myself ik ill always coward out.