Hi all.
I am new to this (TSP).
Since yesterday  have been in my room in front of my laptop searching, reading, and hoping. Wanting more than anything to find the solution to what I have always wanted: to die. For a few hours I thought I had found the way out. Twelve hours later, more reading and planning shattered my plans. I thought that finally I would have a successful suicide. Now I am desperate and frantically searching for another way to end my life.
As I write this, I am looking at my cat explore my desk. She makes me smile. She may be the only joy left for me. But that will soon be gone as well. I can not afford to care for her anymore and my family does not like all the hair that she sheds all over the couches and seats so I am constantly told that they will get rid of her.
I had hope to discuss methods on here, but after the reading the “read this first” section I see that they don’t want that discussed here. So I shall continue my search.
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TO I LOVE CATS, I AM TRULY SORRY FOR DESPERATION AND DESIRE TO DIE NOW. I WISH I COULD HELP. TO SAY I FEEL SAD FOR YOU IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT. I AM SERIOUSLY CRYING. JUST WHY DO YOU HURT SO BAD. I KNOW WHAT YOUR GOING THRU AS FAR AS THE WAYS OUT. I HAVE RESEARCHED THEM ALL. YOU BASICALLY HAVE TO BE TERMINALLY ILL TO HAVE CONTROL OVER YOUR LIFE ON EARTH. BUT HERE NOR THERE BACK TO YOUR THOUGHTS , PLEASE HOLD ON ,PLEASE!!
I started to research about information on my novel, not knowing the intense feelings i would feel reading articles and posts. I felt compelled to register and become a member just to leave a comment to you, meaning YOU are important. I have always felt depression and was suicidal a few times in my life; still feeling in and out depression. I am not going to leave you cliche comments, but i DO want you to know that no matter how unbelievable it may seem–it really does get better; very very veryyyyyy slowly but surely.
Please email me at J_Cess1@yahoo.com
and that goes for anyone else who wishes to use it. Please Take care <3
My cat is my joy as well. He’s such an amazing little love! I truly hope you find peace and happiness, or at least peace. Good luck 🙂
Thank you all.
Thank you FordPerfect42, Pets are truly wonderful companions.
Thank you banana23, that was kind of you.
Thank you MY FREEDOM, I have always wondered why people are so against someone ending their own life. It seems very selfish of them to want to keep someone like me alive. Cause it’s not like they will take care of me. They are not going to take responsibility for those that suffer. Maybe in ancient times it makes sense cause back then children would die at birth or would not reach adult hood. But in these modern times a family’s survival, or things like who will carry on the family name, are not as essential. Sorry kinda went on a bit of a tangent I could not quite explain right now.
Bottom line, I think the time has come to allow someone to end their life.
You’re welcome, ilovecats! I truly wish we could discuss methods…would love to compare notes. C’est la vie I suppose. I totally agree though that suicide should really be a socially acceptable, or at least legally allowable method of self-removal for those of us who feel we simply have nothing to offer society that’s of any use.