I really, really cannot do this anymore. I can’t trust myself. I can’t survive my life with the etching of all this shit in my brain. It’s not good. Not good at all. I think I’m going to go back to planning my way out. This burden is too much for me. No matter how hard I pray for God’s help and talk to other people the guilt just keeps choking me.
Its over. I’m over. I don’t deserve to live. I’m a fucking failure to everyone.
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im katie, and i understand what your going through.
dont end your life, because life is truly made to never give up. i know you have battle wounds, and i do to. i never gave up because i reminded myself of the goals i have for myself. People thought my life was a joke and (no lie) used to call me a ‘whore’ and ‘slut’ and hurt me. even online, i was put down. No matter what has happenes, dont stop. if you think no one cares for you, i do. i care that you wont end yiur life and i care that you will overcome this. If this doesnt help, find people who can. talk to trusted adults, counselors, and therapists, and dont slip away. your not stupid, or dumb, and if the stress is too heavy, talk to people. Let it all out, because life is made for second chances, for you to never give up.
someone who cares,
Katie
What happened you can talk to me
A bunch of shit I could’ve prevented. I’m 20, I know right from wrong, yet I continue to choose the wrong. I’ve just dug a hole so deep, there’s no way out without destroying my family should they find things out.
It’s hard for me to talk about. I’m just really upset with myself right now.